my new found love

As a child, I used to swim every wednesday night without fail! Then when I went to high school I lost my love for swimming! But, recently, I have rekindled the flame!

Work and life is a little overwhelming and stressful at the minute and I now love nothing more than nipping home at the end of the day, grabbing my swimming gear and hitting the pool for a few lengths!

I’m hoping to keep it up…its exercise and its relaxing and it is an unbelievable release of tension and stress and frustrations!

greensleeves!

lifes little nags!

So…now is the time when everyone is returning to uni and I am finding it hard to deal with the fact that im finished and am not going back! It never struck me that it would even phase me but it is very much phasing me!

I feel lost!

I’m finding this time in my life right now somewhat strange! Yes, I have a full time job, and yes I have joined an orchestra and I have a few private flute pupils to teach, but for some reason, there is a part of me inside that is screaming with discontentment! Then, another part screams of my selfishness…why should I be discontent when I have all these things?! Then, another part questions hugely if what I’m doing is what I’m meant to be doing. Then a very amazing friend of mine screams at me (through an email in a very kind and gentle way…) and i quote…Stop trying to understand your life and the meaning behind it… that’s not your job, that’s God’s. Stop stressing out about what people think of you and your future, that doesn’t concern you; that’s God’s issue.

I have control issues that I just need to submit to God! I like to know whats going on and certainly need to be in the know about whats coming next! And right now, I just dont have a clue! I need to stop and consciously remember that that’s ok!It’s ok to not know exactly what’s going on because step by step God will show me his will for my life!

I also have a HUGE issue with people referring to the is ‘year’ of my life as ‘a year out’! Why should it be called a year out?! Why can people not just look at it as the next year of my life journey! I don’t feel like I’m taking a year out because I’m working flippin harder now than I ever have done! 9-5 monday-friday is hard work! But I’m not complaining because I absolutely love my work and am so blessed to be part of the team and working with such wonderful and caring people!

Anyway, I guess I’m just feeling a little unsettled about and uncertain of the future and it scares me! and i needed a little rant!

greensleeves! x

ya just can’t make it up…

So, I finished uni forever (for now!) last week and started straight into full time work in a little coffee shop! Never a dull moment and today was definitely no exception!

I was minding my own business, just going to take orders and as I was walking up the coffee shop I noticed, what I thought was a little piece of ham on the floor…thinking back, it was only 10am and noone had ordered anything with ham in it yet, but it still being relatively early, common sense had not fully kicked in yet. Anyway, I proceeded to pick this little item up, and as soon as I picked it up, I immediately realised it was certainly not ham…no…NO….it was a DENTURE….with just ONE freaky lookin tooth on it!!! UUUGGHHHH!!!! an old woman’s false tooth!!! BOKKKEEEE!!! well….after a lot of laughing, it was returned to its owner…!!

and as if that was enough trauma for one morning….a little while later, i was standing drinkin a little latte and the next thing, the two girls i was working with were like..Louise…dont move…dont move…aaah dont move!!and i was like noooooo please dont tell me theres a spider on meee!! ekk eeek eeek

so, Louise……

*flails arms*

*screams*

*jumps about*

*runs to toilet*

*removes t-shirt*

*SPIDER JUMPS OFFFF HER*

OH DEARRR!!! all before 10:30am!!! i felt like spiders were crawling all over me for the rest of the day!!

ahh…like i said…never a dull moment!! but lets hope tomoro…the not-so-dull moments happen to someone else…!!!

…an amused greensleeves