I just can’t believe it. Hearing the sad news of a tragic accident where a girl, who’s mum I used to work with, has died has made the end of my weekend somewhat difficult. It has left me with a sore feeling inside. Even though I didn’t really know her very well it doesn’t make the reality any less painful and tragic. I don’t really understand the feelings I have right now. They don’t really seem justified because of my very lose connection with her. I’m not even sure if I ever had a prolonged conversation with her, but I am in shock! All I can do is pray for Ammie’s family. I’m not even sure they are Christians, but that doesn’t mean God can’t comfort them in some way!
I think it has hit me in this way possibly because the very thought of death is something I’m finding difficult to deal with because of losing my granny earlier this year. This morning’s news brought on a huge flashback to the night I heard my uncle tell me ‘she’s gone!’ It brought the rawness I feel in my heart. The memory, the feeling, the smell surrounding me, the atmosphere in the hospital that night is something that will stay with me forever.
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